Thinking things thru'

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I have always meant to type this post since 17th October 2008, but due to certain reasons, I am unable to do so until recently......

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The first day of school for my 2nd semester kind of make me feel good after all. I just happened to see my primary school friend who is currently in her final semester in FASS. To tell the truth, it's really GREAT to have someone around here to wave at me. It sort of bring back the good old memories from the past where I used to wave to just anyone around the campus at any one time.

Even so, I will still wonder...
Am I in the right course of studies? It kind of make me feel sad when I see that my friends from polytechnic (those who are now in university), are all doing much better than how I am doing now. I will tend to drift my thoughts towards the grey area in which I will ask myself, "would I do as good as the rest of them should I be in the same course of studies as my friends?".

I know it suck, forever afraid of making the wrong choices and such. But I know that I will have to preserve in whatever I am doing now. I really have to keep reminding myself about that and keep telling myself that I will not regret the choice which I have already made. Will I be able to do that?

It's quite scary at times when people commented my change of course as 'brave'. But I know there are still people who simply think that I actually "chicken out" half way through... YIKES!~

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Now, let me share with you guys what actually happened during my LKY-STEP Award Interview 6 months ago...

I was in NTU, all ready to go into THAT room for the interview. The administrator got me ready and try to calm me down and not feel too stress out about the interview. As you are wondering why I were so tense and all, there were 6 interviewers (representatives from MOE, NTU, NUS, SMU, NP and SP(?)) together in THAT room!

When it was my turn, I got into the room acting totally cool.
Here are the questions which the 6 big shots (one by one) asked me:
1. Tell me about yourself
2. Tell me an event that has changed your life
3. I understand that you have graduated in 2006. So you have been working for the past 2 years. Did you plan for all these? What have you been doing? Why?
4. Apart from your lecturer, can you tell me another person who has inspired you and changed your life?
4b. Apart from what you have mentioned, how else are you being inspired by him?
5. Why would you want to change from Engineering to Arts and Social Sciences?
6. You have done very well in NP, but why (I still don't understand) why you want to change your course of study?
7. What do you see yourself as in the future?
8. I see that you want to be a teacher, but why?
9. Tell me about your hobbies/activities you are involved in.
10. Once again, I am very interested in why you would want to change your course of study to Arts and Social Sciences.

If you have glance through the questions, I guess you know why I wasn't able to get the scholarship. It's just that bad isn't it? I know that I have already given my best shot, also everything which I answered the interviewers came right from my heart and they were the very truth too... But I suppose that I, myself, don't even have a good reason to why I wanted to have a switch of course at that point of time...

Even if you were to ask me again why I switched from Engineering to Arts... I will still tell you this:
I don't wish to spend my whole life "communicating" with electronics components and computers, I wanted to communicate with people, and most importantly, I wanted to help them and inspire their life~!

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From Electronics and Computer Engineering to Arts and Social Sciences, so what's the BIG issue here?

I still have NO idea!!

I seldom see people in university studying Arts when they are actually from polytechnic who have already been studying Engineering for the last 3 years or so. Perhaps I am just that one in a million, or perhaps, I am just as crazy like what Mr. Sunarto said about me. Haa!

Anyway, here's something which Mr. Sunarto had said to me which I think that it is really very very true - So long as you have interest in that particular area, and that you have learn what you are suppose to learn, the results which you achieve at the end of the day doesn't really matter that much. What's most important is actually the process and the learning which is taking place.

It's really very true, isn't it?

So whatever it is, I am currently enjoying the process (even though some seniors told me that this is not honeymoon, and that I am not suppose to enjoy. I wonder...) and I am trying to learn whatever I can learn, so at least I won't regret when I graduate from university.

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Whatever it is, I hope that like me, you will enjoy the process of whatever you are doing now, learn as much as you can, 对得起自己, then everything will turn out to be OK.

Cheers!

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