Wednesday, December 16, 2009
In Loving Memory of My Dearest Buddy
Life is a process – you were born into this world, you grow old, you get down with some illness, and then you pass on. However, life is unpredictable, vulnerable and fragile. You will never get to know what will happen at the very next moment, until it really happens.
On the 9th November 2009, I lost my dearest buddy; my best friend; Joyce Goh. I didn’t really get to understand what exactly happened as it seems rather awkward to even ask this question at this point in time. I was partly to be blamed as I was too busy with my assignments. As a result, I wasn’t able to understand from my friend personally why the need for the operation, not knowing that it was a heart valve transplant. I was blaming my part as her buddy for not being understanding and caring enough. But, at the same time, I understand that things happen for a reason and we just have to keep moving forward.
Here’s a letter to Joyce, and I truly hope that wherever she is right now, she will be able to see this.
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To My Dearest Buddy; My Best Friend; Joyce Goh:
It has only been a month, but there have already been so much that I wanted to say to you. However, whenever I started to blog, I will always not know what to type at all. It just seems that all I wanted to say to you were all being buried in my heart. Sometimes when I tell my friends that I will have sudden thoughts of you, remembering what we used to do and everything, all they tell me was not to think so much. If only they were all as understanding as you were…
By the way, did you know that I couldn’t find anyone to watch New Moon with me until last Thursday when I finally went to watch it with my brother? You promised that we will watch the whole Twilight Saga in the cinema together… And did you know that my sister started her training for working at Resort World Sentosa yesterday? I wonder if you were to be working at the Casino, will you also be having the training together with my sister…?
Things like this; I don’t know who else I can confide to anymore. You have always been THE ONE all along. So who is going to be there for me, to listen to me from now onwards? I must say that I have been trying my best, accepting the fact that you were no longer around anymore. Even though this is something said easier than done, but perhaps, trust once again, just give me some more time.
Thank you for stepping into my life and being part of it for the past decade. I really appreciate our friendship and it has been wonderful knowing you. I remembered that you were the one who approached me one fine day, asking if we (Zhaoming, you and I) could be friends. And that was the day where our friendship starts to blossom. If it wasn’t for your initiative, I might still have been that loner whom I used to be, sitting at the corner of the classroom, being bullied by those guys.
I must admit that I am really jealous of you for having such a wonderful elder sister and what a beautiful family. In addition, I admire you and your courage, for I know that I am a scary cat. I salute you for who you are, my buddy! Although I know that words are never enough, and will always be unable to explain how I feel, but I am sure that this feeling of you being part of my life will remain with me forever.
Lastly, I would like to thank you for the birthday present, I promise that will treasure it well, just like how you treasure our friendship for the past decade. ♥ No matter where you are, part of you will always remain in me. Not only that, you will always be remembered in our heart, forever. Last but not least, here’s a photo album which I have created, especially in memorial of our friendship.
I... will miss you. R.I.P.
From: Your dearest buddy, YiFang. (Love you always!)
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P.S. This blog post has been planned since 15th November 2009. Due to my busy schedule and my running away from reality, it has been delayed until now… Apologies for the delay!
On the 9th November 2009, I lost my dearest buddy; my best friend; Joyce Goh. I didn’t really get to understand what exactly happened as it seems rather awkward to even ask this question at this point in time. I was partly to be blamed as I was too busy with my assignments. As a result, I wasn’t able to understand from my friend personally why the need for the operation, not knowing that it was a heart valve transplant. I was blaming my part as her buddy for not being understanding and caring enough. But, at the same time, I understand that things happen for a reason and we just have to keep moving forward.
Here’s a letter to Joyce, and I truly hope that wherever she is right now, she will be able to see this.
============================
To My Dearest Buddy; My Best Friend; Joyce Goh:
It has only been a month, but there have already been so much that I wanted to say to you. However, whenever I started to blog, I will always not know what to type at all. It just seems that all I wanted to say to you were all being buried in my heart. Sometimes when I tell my friends that I will have sudden thoughts of you, remembering what we used to do and everything, all they tell me was not to think so much. If only they were all as understanding as you were…
By the way, did you know that I couldn’t find anyone to watch New Moon with me until last Thursday when I finally went to watch it with my brother? You promised that we will watch the whole Twilight Saga in the cinema together… And did you know that my sister started her training for working at Resort World Sentosa yesterday? I wonder if you were to be working at the Casino, will you also be having the training together with my sister…?
Things like this; I don’t know who else I can confide to anymore. You have always been THE ONE all along. So who is going to be there for me, to listen to me from now onwards? I must say that I have been trying my best, accepting the fact that you were no longer around anymore. Even though this is something said easier than done, but perhaps, trust once again, just give me some more time.
Thank you for stepping into my life and being part of it for the past decade. I really appreciate our friendship and it has been wonderful knowing you. I remembered that you were the one who approached me one fine day, asking if we (Zhaoming, you and I) could be friends. And that was the day where our friendship starts to blossom. If it wasn’t for your initiative, I might still have been that loner whom I used to be, sitting at the corner of the classroom, being bullied by those guys.
I must admit that I am really jealous of you for having such a wonderful elder sister and what a beautiful family. In addition, I admire you and your courage, for I know that I am a scary cat. I salute you for who you are, my buddy! Although I know that words are never enough, and will always be unable to explain how I feel, but I am sure that this feeling of you being part of my life will remain with me forever.
Lastly, I would like to thank you for the birthday present, I promise that will treasure it well, just like how you treasure our friendship for the past decade. ♥ No matter where you are, part of you will always remain in me. Not only that, you will always be remembered in our heart, forever. Last but not least, here’s a photo album which I have created, especially in memorial of our friendship.
I... will miss you. R.I.P.
From: Your dearest buddy, YiFang. (Love you always!)
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P.S. This blog post has been planned since 15th November 2009. Due to my busy schedule and my running away from reality, it has been delayed until now… Apologies for the delay!
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